Panic Attack / Agoraphobia Diary: 10th March 2004
This last week hasn’t being the best. The landlady who I thought it was one of my best friends is starting to show her true colors, she is only interested in what she can get from me. Yesterday night, our flat was flooded with water from upstairs where she lives. (basically she lives in the big posh house upstairs and we are renting the downstairs flat from her). Well, she blocked the drains in her patio and the rain flooded down the other drains into our flat, so bad that in the middle of the night our dogs jumped into our bed. We thought it was funny that they were wet, until we realized the floor was a swimming pool of at least 10 centimeters high.
Well, the worst surprise was the morning later when my dear friend Marisol expected me to pay for the repairs of the flat and the drains in her patio. I was really upset, I told her where to go. The following night rain came again and we were flooded again. I talked to her son and he called the insurance, would you believe she had a house insurance and she forgot. That night we had a very bad argument and she told me to leave. I am today not feeling well at all. First because being two and a half month pregnant is not easy with an anxiety disorder like mine, second because I have caught a horrible cold, and third because I had a horrible argument with my very selfish friend and now I am homeless, desperately looking for a place to move to. I hope the baby is OK. I am suffering a lot.
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